This quote has always been near and dear to my heart, even more so now that I'm a mother myself. This quote is from Winnie the Pooh. My mom and I used to watch Winnie the Pooh, and we read the books too. It has always stuck with me, and it's the one special thing that I've held onto and shared with my own children. In a way, I feel like I'm that much closer to my mom when I relive it with my own babies.
It's things like that... those things that you carry with you, and remember about your parents... the good times, and the special little things you did together.
Mother's day is a tough time for me. I have a love/hate relationship with this particular holiday (father's day too). I absolutely LOVE celebrating all of the wonderful moms in my life... (and I have many! for that I am sooo thankful!) and I love being celebrated as a mother myself... but it's the moments when I sit back and wish I could also be celebrating the woman who gave birth to me... MY mom.
While my mom wasn't a perfect mom, she had a lot of love in her heart. That is an admirable trait in a person. She was probably one of the most giving people I've ever known in my entire life. She absolutely loved helping people in need and seeing their face light up with delight when she was able to give them something they wouldn't have had otherwise... like food in their cabinets or a warm meal. These are some of the things that stick out to me when I remember my mom.
Words can't even begin to describe what I would give to tell her happy mother's day, thank her for her hard work, and to give her a hug, some flowers, and a gift from her grandbabies. But unfortunately that is not my reality.
As hard as it is to choke back the tears when mother's day rolls around, I try to remind myself that my mom wouldn't want me to be sad, she would want me to do the things with my babies that she will never get to do.... to be the mother that she never had the chance to be. This is what I remind myself of when I'm stricken with sadness...
Since my mom died, I have had a handful of wonderful ladies step up to the plate, who have been wonderful mothers to me. I am so grateful to God for these women. They have shown me so much love, and I know my mom would be so happy to know that there were women that opened their hearts to my sister and me ever so willingly. Those are the women I celebrate on Mother's day.
I do hope that everyone has a wonderful mother's day, and that you all get the chance to enjoy a little time with the moms in your life, wether it be your mom, or another mom! God bless, and happy mother's day!
Here are a couple pictures of my mom and me.
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